To Reposition or To Retire

Please allow me to share my own personal thinking about what I am thinking about regarding the rest of my life.  All of us, to one degree or another is re-thinking our lives. Goodness. In the light of current events, nuclear threats and such hatred going rampant, we all need to be in the business of re-thinking many things—including our own personal futures. I’m hoping that if I am transparent and open, it might also give you words—perhaps even courage to rethink your own life, work and mission.I’ve heard folks say who live a lot of their life in the church, that the word, “retirement” is not in the Bible. Any fact checker can tell you that it actually is in the Bible. I’ll make you work a bit here to find it but it is in the Bible. Now, now, we all can’t be spoon fed, can we? Just dig a bit and you’ll find it and that will put the argument that we can never stop working to bed!The mindset that I hear among some people groups goes like this: "I want to die with my boots on."  "I'd rather rust out than quit."  "Christians should never retire." Then, there's this one: "My rest is in heaven." This is precisely the kind of thinking that leads to burnout and fosters a mentality of survival, not thriving.  If you could hear, like Gwen and I do, from the spouses of the ones who hold such beliefs; if you could hear from those left in the wake of their carnage by men who never quit and women who simply do not know how to slow down, then you could better understand our deep concern.  I suppose the one we hear most is this: "Retirement is not in the Bible."But, there are many words that are not in the Bible that we use a lot these days: seminary, nuclear weapons, narcissism and mega-church, just to name a few. Other words like "workaholic," "high blood pressure" and the "accumulation of high stress" is also not found in the Bible.   This discussion is not about the right and wrong of words, it is about finding the right word that might fit anyone who has worked a long time and who might be considering or re-thinking their life. This is also some food for thought for anyone who is stuck, facing a wall, recently fired or laid off or perhaps even divorced or recently widowed. This is for anyone who wants the courage just to think a bit more deeply about a new beginning.Here are two words I want to explore for my own benefit and perhaps yours as well:The first word is this: “Retire”—Here’s the literal definition:

  1. to withdraw, or go away or apart, to a place of privacy, shelter, or seclusion:

Like, "He retired to his study."

  1. to go to bed:

Like, "He retired at midnight."

  1. to withdraw from office, business, or active life, usually because of age.

This is the one word that trips me up. To withdraw--because of age? Seriously?The second word, and in my opinion better word for me at least, is this word:“Reposition”—Here’s the definition of “reposition.”

  1. to put in a new or different position; shift:

to reposition the artwork on the advertising layout.

  1. to change the image,

Something in me, around me and to me needs to "reposition."  There is just this deep sense within me that unless I reposition my life, I will simply withdraw, lose my voice and quit.  I want this word. I need this word. I need this paradigm to know how to re-access the trajectory of my life and work.  If you are feeling that something needs to shift, then before we jerk the gear shift of our lives into neutrual or reverse, let's just pause for a moment and reflect.  This would help us NOT to react--but rather respond to how we're feeling and what we are wanting.Well, based on these two definitions, I know that I am not ready to “withdraw” from my work or the life I live. I’m not ready to “retire.” I’m not ready and I’m not done. It’s that simple for me. There are still some things I feel the need to say, teach and live. There is still the sense within me that: “This—THIS is MY time and it is the time to stand up and do something--say something.. This is my time.  Deep inside, I feel the world's convergence with all of our problems with this incredible message of caring for our souls.We are not the perpetual slaves to Egypt having to always do more with less straw.  We are not that people group. We are not slaves to our dilemma. We are not victims of the world. We are free and there is this idea of the ways that Jesus lived his life that I feel so compelled to talk about.(See my book, The Jesus Life) I want to stand up and finally say some things that have been brooding for quite a while. After pioneering a ministry; shaping a new work around the words “care of the soul”—I somehow feel like I’m just now ready and equipped to do this. All my life may really have been preparation for what is just ahead of me.  Do you ever feel this way?  It seems with aging, I am morphing into saging and that makes so much sense. I may finally be learning how to do what I have been wanting to do and more--what I have been talking about for many years.  Looking back, I can say this for sure: most of my life has been in preparation and training for this moment—this time and this message. I believe the world is desperate for the message of soul care and I want to be one of the messengers.A better word for me to work with and perhaps for you to ponder is this word: To reposition oneself in life. If I want to reposition myself, then I should reposition myself. If I want to share my message, then I want to think this through and jettison what needs to be jettisoned and narrow my focus and move forward. That's it.  Let go.  Narrow my focus.  Proceed.Do you need to reposition? Do you need to simply change a few things—stop giving out through all the hoses that are attached to you and live more sanely and more intentionally? In my case, I have been about the work of unpacking the phrase offered us by Jesus –the abundant life. I can say for certainty: I want to live before I die. I want my life to make a mark; leave an impression—be a signpost for a few—most of all I would hope are my grandchildren. To do this, I will need to reposition my life. I can't withdraw. That's not the right vision at all. But I can "reposition"--I can change a few things and some things can change in me.I have a few folks whose words are like gospel to me. When they speak, I stop and listen. One of these voices is my mentor, Mary Oliver. She writes:“When it’s over, I want to say: all my lifeI was a bride married to amazement.I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.When it is over, I don’t want to wonderif I have made of my life something particular, and real.I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,or full of argument.I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.”I believe that as we live—as we age, this quest to really live before we really die gnaws inside of us like sharp hunger pangs. We need to live and we will fight to live. Who, in the world ever really wants to have just “visited this world?”  Forgive me, please...but there are a few who simply want to visit--who want to actually go through life asleep and simply endure.  They think that to survive is the goal. But not me and I'm thinking not you either. I want to thrive and I want to thrive until my body begs me to lay it down and put it--that tent--into the ground....then I will most certainly be "free at last."  I long for this.Another mentor of mine, John O’Donohue writes so magnificently:“For a long time it [your own life] has watched your desire, Feeling the emptiness growing inside you, Noticing how you willed yourself on, Still unable to leave what you had outgrown. It watched you play with the seduction of safety And the grey promises that sameness whispered, Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent, Wondered would you always live like this?Oh me.... he grabs my soul with these words.... "will yourself to go on..."  Do you know how many hundreds of time I have heard this in some way in my work with leaders, preachers, missionaries and CEO's?  Trust me, to "will to go on" is said too, too much.To reposition is to change the direction of how one is moving through life. To reposition, is to implement changes that will effect the direction, impact that I—that you-- might have. Since I believe that I am not “done” with my work and calling—I want to reposition myself so that I can do what I feel called to do—but do it with greater effectiveness and impact. I do not want to be stuck. I do not want to be seduced by the seduction of safety. I want to live and I want to help others to live as well.I have found that the seduction of safety speakes the loudest in the area of money. Do I have enough?  That begs another question that is a deeply spiritual question to think through: How much is enough?  Here's a book I highly recommend to help you think through this issue of "enough."Some 'new beginning' is what births up inside me when I sit with this word--reposition.  I feel hopeful. I feel courage. I feel like I have a map now. I know what I need to do. O'Donahue ends his poem, "For a new beginning" with this stunning line: "For your soul sense the world that awaits you."  And my does. My soul senses what is ahead.  This is not the end. This is a  new beginning.To reposition might mean to maximize one’s impact, effectiveness and influence. To reposition is to find that deep place within that Buechner called, "deep gladness converging with the world's need." It is reposition to feel, sense and recognize this deep gladness of why I am alive. To reposition may mean, to actually withdraw.  But here's the point, each of us has to work through this for themselves. We are not involved in cookie cutter process. We are not worker-bees. We can reflect. This is what makes us human. My dog can't reflect. The humingbirds don't reflect but we--those created in the image of God can reflect, make choices and move into these choices.When an athlete was training for the Para-Olympics and ran speed races on his newly configured blades for new mechanical feet, his performance increased by 20% because he had the blades on his prosthetic legs adjusted to a better angle. By repositioning the angle of the blade, a better performance was achieved. I”d like to think I could improve my own output and impact by doing some things that would “reposition” me.If I reposition, I might run better. I might run faster. I might feel his glory as Eric Liddell said he did when he too, ran in the Olympics. (His story is told in the wonderful movie, "Chariots of Fire."  Watch it soon!).As we age, we have had a few paradigms and terms offered us about how to transition from meaningful work to a life that envisions “more” than just working more years.  Some are "reboot,"  "retool" and again "retire."  But those don't fit--at least me.We have heard the word “retire.” It’s that phase when people stop working and start---what is the word I hear most often? It’s 'stop working and start living. 'But that does not fit me. I have lived as I have worked. It’s not one or the other. It’s a dance between the two realities of life: work and living. Many retire and are happy to stop, withdraw, quit, ‘hang it up’ or whatever other word might best fit their vocational transition.We have heard: “moving from success to significance.” In this movement, one changes direction to embrace causes and a new kind of work that fosters significance. Bob, was a banker for a large national bank. He was known to be successful. But in his late 50’s, Bob began to want to do something that was “more” than just being a success. He wanted to do something of significance. So Bob offered his skills to a mission organization who helped underprivileged children in a developing country. Bob tells me know that “This is the most rewarding work he has ever been involved in in his entire vocational career.” Knowing that Bob was bringing real and lasting change to children through his time and work brought a great deal of joy to Bob and his family.I'm fortunate to have worked and also experienced some significance. I know my work has mattered to many people. I know I have helped many people.  That, again is not my issue.  My issue is deeper than significance.  I suspect yours may be as well.Here's how I'm working through this by jotting down a few statements that define my heart's desire at the present:

  • I want to see myself “reposition” to do the things that bring me life.
  • I want to be involved in areas that are truly my sweet spot.
  • I want to do the things I really feel gifted and called to do and leave other areas for others who are gifted, passionate and desiring to do the things I feel I need to lay down.
  • I want to lay down areas that drain me.
  • I want to pick up areas that bring hope to me.
  • I want my marriage to ripen into more health and deeping love than ever before.
  • I want to love my grandchildren and be there for my grandchildren for as long as they can. I believe they need a spiritual guide and I'd like to be that for them.
  • I want to love my four boys and their wives with deepening love and a deepening ability to listen to them more than I ever have before in my life.
  • I want to surrender some aspects of my life and work in order to be more free to pick up a lighter and less burdened way to live and work.
  • I want to be responsible to steward my life and gifts to have maximum impact on the remaining years of my life of good health, desire and passion.
  • I want to focus on the ‘main thing’ from an eight-lane freeway--where everyone is moving fast and where I’m doing multiple things. I want to simply “stay in my lane” where I feel reasonably gifted and called to move on a bit further in my work. I want to narrow my lane to doing the thing—or things that are indeed, mine to do—as if no one else can do this, say this or give this like I do at my season of life.
  • I no longer desire to live in an eight-lane freeway. I am certain of this fact.

 Each of these “I want….” Statements are more than statements. They contain a manifesto of re-working my insides—including my desires and longings with my intent and focus. I will not reposition unless my desires begin to align with my intent and my focus. I can drift. I can drift for a long time perhaps but I do not want to drift. I want to reposition my life, work and mission. To do these things, I need to reposition. Unless, we learn to reposition, we will simply keep on keeping on—and this is what I know I do not want to do. I could die one day and in that death, I would take with me to my grave some regrets—some things that are bubbling up within me—some pieces of a mission that I want to be a part of—some things I still want to do and feel called to do. This will involve:

  • Discerning what areas need to be laid down.
  • Knowing the areas that drain me and suck the life out of me.
  • Focusing and narrowing—which is the movement of one repositioning one’s life to say in my lane and not swerve into areas that might be interesting and fascination but could, in the end result in more of a drain than giving me hope, joy and fulfillment.
  • Courage—I must have courage to move when I hear the bell.
  • Convergence—the circumstances, pulling, events and desire—all need to have a sense of coming together. I believe that timing is important. Timing is a part of this convergence.

 Making this Personal When this comes down to it—when I distill what I’m trying to say, it is this: 

  • I want to live the life I write about, teach about and explain. I do not want to be talking head. If this is true, I must reposition my life, work and passion.
  • I want to write another book that would be the convergence of all I now know about the abundant life and walking in the ways of Jesus.
  • I want Gwen and I to have a long season of restoring the “years that the locusts have eaten.” There were years and years of my being a workaholic—giving the best years of our lives to others and giving the left overs to each other. To do this, I will need to reposition.
  • I want to be an active, involved grandfather. I want to show up for my grandchildren and engage their hears and inspire them to live with God. To do this, I will need to reposition my life.
  • I want to be healthy. There have been too many years of long, long weeks and living more exhausted than I wanted to live. To do this, I will need to reposition my life.

 After hearing a friend of mine use the word “reposition”—I knew, just like the virgin Mary knew when God spoke to her about being pregnant with Jesus--that I had been spoken to. This word--"reposition" is a pregnant word. Full of meaning.  But in all honesty, not quite ready to deliver. I need more time.  I don't want to make a mistake. The time will come.  It's gestation time I suppose.  It is my word—a word that will begin to deconstruct an illusion of a life I did not want to live and actually enable me to make strides to live this life—my only life—my abundant life.How about you?    

The Care of the Soul

The Care of the Soul is the answer to these questions!The care of the soul is not a program to be mastered; not an agenda to be followed; not a curriculum in which we advance. The care of the soul is a way of life—a way taught by Jesus, followed by the early church, practiced in communities in the mid centuries and almost entirely forgotten and neglected by the modern church today.This way of life is a clarion call to pay attention to God in the world and in your own life. Soul Care is about awakening to what really matters in life—far, far more than monetary success, personal achievement and individual significance. The more modern we become, the more likely we are to both forget and ignore the old, ancient ways that we see in the Scriptures. In today’s world, we value the fast and swift; the busy and the one who can multi-task efficiently; the strong and convincing.  By returning to our roots, we find a whole, other way to live--a way the ancients knew and practiced--a way that brought them life in the midst of trials and tribulation. We need this hope today, don't we?Our souls are in need of great care because there is great violence happening in the world today and great violence in our inner lives. The world seems so thin—so much turmoil—so much disturbing us. We seem on the brink of war with so many. Our inner worlds are in turmoil too! We’ve become over-medicated; over stimulated and over committed. We can’t do it all. We can’t keep up. We’re not sleeping well anymore and there always seems to be a committee meeting happening in our minds when we try to be silent.  The expectations we care in our minds about our work, marriage, money, relationships and witness to the world can sink us. They are heavy, often conflicting with one another and sometimes confusing. We need help.[tweetthis]The care of the soul is a non-linear, fluid and kinder way of life.[/tweetthis] Soul Care has a predictable movement which involves these developments:- an awakening that we need to tend to our inner life.- a confession that we can’t do this on our own and that we need help.- a humility to become a beginner in something we’ve never been good at but need to master.- a guide to show us the way forward.Perhaps we need to just stop here and say that the reason why there is so much resistance to the care of the soul is because we are not really good at all at: awakening, confessing, being humble and realizing we need a guide. Our culture has shaped us into almost the exact opposite of each of these postures of the heart. We have been led to believe we are already the enlightened ones. We have no need of confessing anything because we feel we have not done anything wrong. We are stiff-necked not bowing to anything or anyone. Thinking that we are the real trail blazers we have no need of guide because there is simply no time to ask anyone for guidance.Caring for the soul is seen first and foremost in the life and teachings of Jesus, himself. Since he said, “I am the way…” we would do ourselves some good here if we remembered that the first followers of Jesus never called themselves “Christians.” They referred to themselves as the “followers of the way.” This is mentioned five times in the book of Acts alone.I’m sorry that the church, in general, is not much help here. Addicted to programs, attendance and performance, we must return to the ancient ways to find our own ways of doing our life. I lament this so often as I travel, experience and witness the unfolding of our American attempt to be the church.  Personally, I feel like we are on thin ice with our smoke machines, performance driven ways and spectator like methods of worship.  I'm so thrilled to share a new and just released resource with you here. Our friends, Mark and Carrie Tedder have now released a way for house churches, missionaries, those who travel; those who can't go to church--a new way to worship. It's called, "Scattered and Small" and you can view it here. It's a way to worship without the frills and trappings and for those who might want intimate, small and more reflective.  I am thrilled to discover churches that embrace the care of the soul for the sake of others as a basic tenet of their life. I'm so glad to say, I know of many and lift of the chalice of my life to greet their life.Throughout the history of our faith, individual men and women have stood up and stood against the tide of culture defining our faith and how to do our faith. Throughout time, there have always been individual voices beckoning us this way or that way and a part of caring for your soul is listening to the voices who speak with authority, clarity and conviction.  Perhaps, you might decide to start reading books published 100 years ago–for in these pages, you will find a more distilled voice–a voice that we can benefit from in today's modern world. Ancient wisdom still lives today and helps us today.Potter’s Inn is a resource to individuals who seek to care for their soul and then offer that same care to others. Our Aspen Ridge Retreat is a place people can come to be trained, receive guidance from our trained spiritual guides, and explore more resources we offer.To get started or to continue in the journey of caring for your soul, I’d like to suggest the following places to dig in:

  1. Get and read, Embracing Soul Care and do a daily reading. Use it as couples, in small groups, with a friend or alone. There are short entries to grasp some new thinking. Also, consider reading Soul Custody. Use this as a guide because there is a short study at the end of each chapter.
  2. Consider having a spiritual guide—a spiritual friend where you can enjoy conversations that are deep; life-giving and healing. At Potter’s Inn, we offer this through Skype, but also in person at the retreat.
  3. Attend a retreat this coming year. Consider the Potter’s Inn hallmark retreat: The Soul Care Experience. It’s a five-day, guided retreat covering the life-giving themes of soul care. The May 2016 is almost full but there is room in the fall retreat in October.
  4. Consider the Soul Care Institute, which is a two-year, cohort modeled training initiative led by seasoned veterans in the field of soul care.

Caring for your soul is a spiritual journey that has tremendous benefits for our physical life, our human bodies and minds–who always seem to beg for more!  It is a journey of the heart and mind, where a place of convergence begins to flow onward and inward.Blessings as you move onward and inward in the care of your soul this year!